Forty days passed since I’ve wrote something here. Hmm.. Got so much thought for these past days but haven’t found the will to write it down.
With regards to my work, I’m quite pissed. The transportation has been cut and I need to relocate. Another problem is, they plan to get accommodation and it’s still not ready. Meaning, I’m ready to move but there is no place to move in to. I don’t feel fine with the 7 times travelling within a day. Before it was 4 times, now it increased, sad part is, travelling time increased because I need to take the bus. It’s hot and crowded, not to mention the time consumed due to the stops and I need to catch up with the bus timings because if I don’t I’ll be late. Another thing is the timings, we are still on split shift and the crazy part is I work as accounts and I get to go home by 1am. Not really the best moment for me now, but trying to get through with this as if I got enough sleep..
I got a job offer to a company in Dubai. Benefits wise it’s a good opportunity. But I got to think twice about moving especially when I felt during the conversation with the Admin Manager that they would not be giving me up that easily. Funny thing is, not because they could actually give me the same offer as the other company but because they have the ability to make it hard for me to transfer, like requiring me to exit and giving me ban or something like that. So for the moment, I’ll let this go and always hope for the best plans of Him who knows what is best. =)
Missing my family, missing my friends, missing the fellowship. Miss it too much, and all of it is stuck in my head, especially the ones where I put too much hope not only for me but for those who believed in me.. If I remember correctly, there have been two instances where I felt a sudden rush to get back home but off course I have to reproach from that feeling because I just can’t dwell on it. It will be very difficult if I got stock on that.. Not here. Not now.
With my hon. There have been challenges within our relationship but thankfully we got pass it. Speaking of relationships, I’m still trying to improve myself with the hope that I could change from my former loner me and could be entertaining and helpful to others. I got passed this for a while before I left the Philippines, but somehow it caught up with me here. I still don’t know what to do, but one thing is for sure, I’m not fond of being unliked by people around me. Problem is, the “not wanting to be too close to other people because of the thought that I might lose them” is getting close to me again. I don’t like it. It makes me irritable to others.
Increased weight. Wehh? Long issue. Is it possible to return to my former physique? Err.. Next question. Wahah ;b
What else happened within these days? Hmm.. Too much.
