Plans?

Tomorrow is July 26, my 23rd Birthday. Hmm.. I don’t have plans. But being ask about it got me asking myself, what do I want to do for my birthday? Tuff thing to think about. For starters I got this idea of treating myself to T.G.I.F or Chilis.. Yum! But then, I remembered our schedule is split shift.. Grr.. Meaning I could only do this during the break time, 2-5pm, but don’t want to because I want to eat with my Hon.. Or after the 2nd shift, which is probably 10pm? Hmm.. That would be too late, and eating large meal at night means more weight for me, wahaha.. So nope, not either. Hmm.. I could go on straight shift right? Request to our management to allow me to go on straight since its my birthday, well, not too bad, but as usual very out of place in the workplace.. Or maybe I could just do half day? Not bad either, but that means deduction again from my salary and should I say, a spot on my attendance records also.. So, what now? That leaves me into, err.. Nothing. No plans as of now. =]

Rest Day?

Yesterday was a blast. Friday’s are always a blast. Come to think of it, why ain’t I got two rest days? I mean, I know a lot who has Friday and Saturday off.. Hmm..  As for the company I’m working for, err.. Nope, just Friday for you dear. Hehe..

Well, guess I just have to go with it, since it’s the schedule they’ve set. But I do feel sometimes that one rest day in a week is not enough to get some charging after the “mentally” and most of the time “emotionally” stressing work with all the drama and weirdness of the management..

Thinking about rest, don’t feel much off it during week days either, we are on split shift, we go to work twice a day.. So, that’s going to work twelve times in a week.. Thankfully we sometimes get some days on straight shift and got to go home by 7pm (supposed to be early), but during those times it’s mostly allotted for doing laundry or other choirs.. Hehe..

Hmm.. Well.. This is life abroad to me. Where’s the rest day? Hmm.. Schedule it on my yearly vacation..

Celebration

Everyday is a celebration. But everyday is different from the other, like today, I feel it’s very special. :D

Went to church, received beautiful red roses from Hon.. Really like it.. =)

Glad my sister also came. After a while we got to attend the Worship Service together again. Learned the Superiority of Christ to Moses. If Moses remained faithful as a servant of the house, Lord Jesus remained faithful as the builder of the house. God is faithful, His love never fails.

Bought pizza at Khalidiya Mall. Ate nutty chocolate donut at Dunkin Donuts with Baskin and Robbins Ice cream while waiting for the pizza’s to be ready.

Went to our BS at Ate Evelyn’s flat. Had delicious lunch and wonderful dessert. Learned more of God’s revelation for the things that will happen on the last days.

Afterwards, got a chance to hear my brothers and sisters’ Birthday and inspirational messages to me. My sister from Dubai and my Hon’s father is also there.

I am so blessed. Giving thanks how God has provided us everything in this world in all aspect of our lives as we live in Him, the giver of life.

Had a very nice cake, love the blue ribbon around it.. Thanks Hon! ;)

Went home: filled, and happy – birthday. ;D

Turn on the Heat

The weather is rising, but they say this is not yet its peak, I’m guessing the temperature now would be playing around 45 to 50 degrees Celsius, or hopefully still sometimes down up to 40degrees Celsius. I’m starting to get the “humidity” thing also, at night, going home and feeling the same heat during the day.

A morning walk of 2-3 minute from the flat to the parking is not that bad.. Hmm.. Afternoon walk using an umbrella? It actually feels the same without.. :D

Thankfully, there’s a lot of trees and grass within the city, it lessens the heat. And off course having the thought of running inside to get some AC is nice. More about it, I feel not confident to walk around without a bottle of water in my bag, hmmm, like today. I forgot eh. ;D

Routine

I’ve been going on this routine for a while now.. Get up in the morning, take a bath and go to work. Freshen up, open my PC, organize my things, get a cup of hot drink, do some reading and turn to the monitor for work stuff.. Or mix it up a bit sometimes. :D

Hmm.. After finishing the important “work stuff,” I admit I’ve been idle these days.. :D

See now, working hours are mostly the monitor and me so, I open my playlist in WMA, open TextTwist (play it afterwards), see the movie list for something I like to watch and then open my work files.

It’s silly to try to relax at work, because it’s technically work and I know there are still some things to be done but I guess I’ve got the “wait till it happen” or “slack it off” syndrome through the day. Haha.. Funny, but not really.. I mean, I’m not initiating anything, which is sort of sad for me coz I still like being busy and doing too much work. Combined with the crazy management, I guess I think there’s nothing to boost me on as we say “working hard” on what I should do which lead me to being like this, settling for doing nothing much of what I prefer. Err.. It’s not actually doing nothing.. It’s more on not doing too much.

Dates

The dates we’ve got last week was nice also, its super sweet, ate it the whole day and the next day I’ve got it. Picking some fresh (though not looks like it) from the tree 2 days ago was nice experience too. The dates were dusty, and I can’t tell if its good or not but when I washed it, peeled the skin and ate it, guess what, its really nice and sweet. :D

The experiment with the fresh dates I kept from last week went well also, 3 out of 6 I’ve got to ate and it did turned ripe from hard to soft. For the remaining 3, 1 of it tastes sour so for the other 2 I’ve just have to throw because of the looks of it.

Fresh dates are better than the processed ones, I really appreciate the soft texture. Though I heard that among the fruits dates were the highest sugar content, second is the watermelon, hmm.. So, I guess though still craving, I should li-low.

Bits

Sharing bits of me is definitely a new thing.

Before, I thought it was just fine to hear my friends’ stories and try to understand them, give advice or simply just listen. I don’t talk much about me because it’s too boring, nothing that (I think) others would appreciate. When asked a question about me, I just answer briefly. Another reason why I don’t really share my stories or problems is because I have to listen first to theirs and not add mine to theirs.. Listening is kinda my thing.

Though, I still feel and do this way, I guess it really wouldn’t hurt if I share my personal experiences with others. :)

Gradually increasing the percentage of letting stories leak out from me..

I got something about friendship, it’s sharing bits of you to others, leaving a piece of yourself for others to hold.

Gym?

Harhar.. Yup, gym. Gym daw eh.. Eh di gym..

Proper diet and gym sessions, let’s see. =D

Feeling at Home

Being at home is different from feeling at home.

So, here I am, in a place too far away from home. In a place where going back home is not an option I can make without serious effects, where going back home is set on a given date as per contract.. Here where thinking of going back home means a lot of preparation..

Here where I need to feel at home to get through..

It’s been 10 months since I left home.. The hope of getting home by this year has almost faded, though I could still go, it is not advisable.

Simple?

I always thought and say to my self that I like simple things. But, what is a simple thing? Really? Is there anything simple? I’m not sure.. All I know is that every single creation is created with complexity because our Creator is all-powerful.

As for me, all I ask for is love.. Not material.. Be it with a kiss, a hug, or a hand to hold. A real love not spoken in words but felt by the heart. Maybe it’s too much to ask but when I think of it this is really what I want.

Love is a thing that bind us all human being.

Because of Love, I am alive. And for this reason, I should start with myself, giving out love instead of asking for love.

Though I like being simple, I am really not easy to understand, but I believe that the person who loves me would always understand.. Me, as me. I couldn’t be perfect and I couldn’t be somebody else either. But I do try to improve, and cope as I should not because of my own abilities but because of Him who gives His grace abundantly.

Am I disappointed when I don’t get what I want? Well, yes. But this doesn’t suggest that I should be. Remember, everything you need were already provided. Everything else not with you right now is either on the way, coming or not what you really need for the moment.

Liking Switchfoot :)

I just got a copy of Jon Foreman’s EP songs. When I listened to it, I just remembered why I like Switchfoot. It’s because their songs somewhat explains what I feel inside. Knowing someone out there has the same thoughts as me, probably the same experiences as me, maybe not exactly the same but at least, a part of it.

Their songs, tells a story (most of it I could relate too). I think their lyrics ain’t made to be just plain simple words but composed of deep thoughts of a deep sense of deeper meaning.

I’ve started liking Switchfoot I think back in 2005 or 2006 during “Nothing is Sound” Album. Well that year was the first time I heard their songs or heard about them.. And it’s not because of A Walk to Remember movie (though I did like that movie). It was after I started downloading Switchfoot songs that I came to know that theirs was the original Only Hope song. :D

I watched their concert in the Philippines, it was the first and only time I’ve been in a Band concert. And it was great, SF really did amazing in their concert.

Funny thing is.. The thoughts I had when the concert was about to finish came out in one of Jon Foreman’s EP. That is.. “I’m gonna miss you when you’re gone, I’m gonna miss you in your songs.” That I would really miss these guys knowing that they would leave after the concert and come back to their country. That it would take a long time to see them again (but hopefully still will). I cannot even want to think that the time would come that they will stop doing songs and retire.. But as Jon sang it, “Please, don’t talk about the end,” so, I’ll just look forward to more of them in the music buzz.

SF seems to be a simple band but rocks really hard, not much exposure but really made a noise in all the places they’ve been, in the hearts of all the listeners. For me, not typical at all. Peace out. :D

River

There’s a river in my eyes and it flowed through and through tonight.

My deepest thoughts and emotions are always carried by the waters. This is the reason why I like it when it rains, when the raindrops touches my face and hide the tears away. This is the reason why I like swimming, I could submerge my self for a few seconds and cry all I want and have an excuse why my eyes are red.

I’ve been crying all my life and somehow it’s been normal. I cry when my heart’s tremendously happy, touched or moved. I cry when I am sad, disappointed or angry.

There is a quote, it says, “If you want to get to know someone, find out the reason why he is angry.” As for me, if you want to get to know more of me, try to find out the reason why I cry. But don’t ask me, because answering and telling what I feel is too hard to do. Don’t get angry with me, because it would hurt even more.

No one is at fault when I cry. And I always been thankful when I could cry, that means I can still feel and that I have emotion still. I tried not crying, I stopped crying and it didn’t turn out well. Hard and cold is not good for me, that meant I don’t care and been swayed away from the right track. I guess I didn’t even care about everyone around me.. And concentrated on not crying, and pretending I am strong.. But in the real sense of it, empty.

But after a year or so I did start crying again, I missed it, how it’s always been a river. How words need not to be said, and let the tears carry it all. How as my eyes are welled my heart is also, and I feel relieved.