Sassy Movie

I don’t really watch just any movie. I watch those which I have interest into, like Matrix, Lord of the Rings, Harry Potter, stuff like that and yes, most of it are fictional the ones which doesn’t really exist. Or wouldn’t exist, or if does exist, to me it doesn’t. Like I said, I only see those movies I have interest on, I don’t watch randomly because if I do have time to watch, I would just pick a series which I haven’t finished yet and then watch it. But things do change when you have somebody. :)

I kinda watched a record breaking number of movies for the past 9 months than I ever had. And if not in the cinema, it would be a DVD rip or mp4 format movies which I watch in my laptop or PC. Most of these movies I’ve seen are either with him or from him or of some way I’ve acquired in connection to him. And definitely most of those movies are those which I never thought of watching, at all. =)

One of it is love stories, I didn’t like watching those, mostly because I don’t want myself to relate to it, to the part where there is a happily ever after or such. Because I always thought I’m not a typical girl and my love story wouldn’t be that typical too (like in the movies). Right now I cannot think of any purely love story movie that I really liked, but guess what, I just watched My Sassy Girl movie and liked it. I think I related to it (not totally but probably most of it). Yep, I said it, I liked it. Definitely not typical but probably fictional. I like the part where the guy loved the girl thru her crazy antics. I like the part where the term destiny is still related to a person’s action (what he/she would do). And I like the part where the girl realized her wrongs and realized in herself that he really loved the guy just as he is and not just because he is coping with her past heartbreak. :)

Do I pass as a sassy girl? Hmm.. That’s not what I’m trying to say but maybe in some way I like to think I do. Hihih ;)

9th

Today is our 9^th monthsary. We had a great time last night and greeted each other early.

Today, thankfully I got a straight schedule at work so afterwards I went to Marina Mall to meet him there. It was not that long ride but waiting for the bus took time. I arrived after 30 minutes. I just want to see him so when he told be that he’s already there but with his friends, I told him I’ll just wait on a bench in front of the fountain but he didn’t liked the idea so I got up and prepare to go to where he is but thankfully he phoned and I saw him meters away from me.  Unfortunately (since I actually didn’t want to) we went to see his housemates to say he is going with me. I’m not into those situations but I did put on a smile and throw some jokes to lighten up. After that we went to see some gadgets, I looked for a digicam that I would like but didn’t find any. Then we see the cellphone stands and found one I liked and decided to buy it. Getting a digicam is what I planned but having a nice phone is not bad either so I got a Samsung GT-S5233W EDGE Quad Band, it’s not much but I like it, it has wifi and camera so it’s fine with me. Thankfully I got passed the idea of just buying the latest, now, I stick on buying something I like and also would not hurt my pocket. =D We got some free movie tickets so we went to the cinema to see if there is any movie we could watch, as expected we didn’t find any. After that we went to get some food. We had Sbarro pizza, pasta and salad. I enjoyed our time together, especially when he just stared and smiled at me. I love this guy. :)

We went home and during the ride we decided to go somewhere and meet some friends but the planned changed because at the middle of our conversation I pissed him off. I guess there are some nice words that I haven’t said or some nice gestures that I haven’t done. I went home sad, tears did fell, I thought it’s the end of us. He sent me an SMS afterwards and I got to tell him what I felt. We did straighten things out and decided tomorrow would be another day. I just said to my self that night that, if I was still me before I met him, I would probably have just gone my way and ended everything. But I can’t, I don’t know why but I can’t, not with him. Period.

I do got some snob personality but under it is just me trying not to hurt myself by getting close to someone, but to this guy, I can’t help but letting myself all out in front of him (hmm.. maybe not all-all but definitely not holding back anything).

Today, as I said in my SMS, I don’t ask for perfection but I do hope for understanding. Love is far more important than pride. And, I love you.

Work na naman

It’s a Saturday. As always we have work. Within these past days I got up late and always rushing to go to the pick-up point for our shuttle service. Today I really am late, glad I still saw the van arrived and waited for me while I walk and cross the way (thankfully). It’s an unpleasant scene if I didn’t make it to the service because I would need to get a taxi really fast because if I log in later than 9:15am that would mean no salary for the rest of the day. Awts. Funny thing is, there are no workers around (gardeners and construction workers I usually see), glad for them since they don’t have work on a Saturday. Ok, ok.. There might be some benefits in their work and so to mine.. ;b

Two of my colleagues just filed their resignation last week, meaning we will be decreasing in number. I’m affected since our accountant for insurance will be leaving too. Affected in a way that I don’t know what would happen if ever they’d find a replacement, what shall be her or his job? Hmm.. I wouldn’t know but I should get myself ready. This would mean a lot of work that might add up. Be ready. Be ready. Be ready. And about the buzz that the replacement shall be getting higher salary than me should not bother me at all.. Though it would. I decide not to be bitter in these things because our God is just. And He knows what I need. So why should I worry? Why do I freak out? God knows what I need. He knows what I need. :)

Wee and Wii

After the Friend’s Day, our group practiced our presentation for the After Glow, the Anniversary Celebration of FCC.

The concept is nice and we almost finished the presentation. Did some singing and dancing. Had fun with the dancing part. I started getting active in our Church in the Philippines by dancing. I remember when I first joined the Tambourine Dance, that was during a DVBS presentation and I think I was 10 years old by that time. Since then, I haven’t left the dancing ministry and we started to do Interpretative and Modern Dance, until I started working. I don’t want to feel too grown up to dance, but because of the work schedule I faded in the practices and attending practice when I have time was changed into giving my self time to rest. I missed dancing, that’s why doing some simple steps yesterday is very nice. Most of all, I missed dancing as a way to give praise to God. Audience of One in everything we do. :)

After the presentation practice we went to Al Wahda to spend time with Hon’s father. I enjoyed walking around seeing gadgets, talking and eating halo halo.

After eating we parted with his father and went to another practice for an ethnic dance presentation for the worship service on FCC’s anniversary. How did I join? I got talked into it by Bro. Jay R, I agreed to join and though I haven’t attended all the practices they’d still included me so I continued. The practice went well. We finished the steps and learned the other parts. Just need to practice more with the other casts in the presentation. Hope I could attend to that practice..

After the practice we stayed with Colin, makulit but sweet little girl. We waited for her mother and father to arrive since she seems to like company and also since we need (or thought we need) to get sized up for the costumes. We played Wii, it’s a nice interactive game with a sensor that makes it feel like you are actually playing the game, hmm.. Probably call this a virtual reality game noh? Hmm.. Anyways, had real fun and too much laughs seeing Hon and Nicol magkulitan. Seeing that scenario made me think of us having kids. Hmmm.. Deep thought. And it would be a blessing. :)

No Brakes

Crazy mouth. Just spilled imperfection without any grace.. Ooops.. Sorry. Sometimes (or maybe most of the time) I do things like that. I didn’t know that it would hurt. I just know that it’s the truth for that matter of time.

But I do need to learn to put some brakes on my tongue. Not because I’m used to being told of my imperfection should I assume that other people are also.. Yep, I’m used to being told of my wrongs, and I do accept it no matter how it’s been said (soft, loud, angry or nice voice, etc.) I’m used to it. I do agree to it and although I’m not quite good at it, I do try to improve myself.

It hurts sometimes that people I love wouldn’t accept all of me and would try to change me, I won’t blame them, and coz in their point of view it should be done. If it is how they express their love then so be it and let it be. =)

Though, I still believe that love is best expressed when you love someone no matter what appearance, attitude, habit or character he or she has. That is, acceptance. And if it is His will for our love ones to change, it should be asked politely in prayer. Lots and lots of it. Since it is by grace that we are change from glory to glory and it applies to everyone, both you and me. Peace out! (--,)”)

New Location

Within eleven months of staying in UAE, this is the 3^rd house where I’d be staying. In my first two months I lived in Sharjah. Then I moved to Elektra, Abu Dhabi, I stayed there for almost nine months. Then due to some transportation issues, I need to move to Khalidiya, Abu Dhabi. It’s really weird because I didn’t actually want to leave any of those places where I stayed, there were just some uncontrolled events that affected it. Like in the first work I had in Dubai (where our accommodation is in Sharjah), I didn’t really wanted to resign because the people are nice there but since they cannot provide me working visa I grabbed the opportunity here in Abu Dhabi. Now, I’m in Abu Dhabi. Last month I got a job offer in Dubai but I didn’t accept it mainly because I’m not ready to move yet (though all the circumstances I’m facing that time tells me to do so) and because I got a feeling that my current employer won’t let me get off that easy (leaving me to the possibility of losing my current and suppose to be new job). So, here I am, still in Abu Dhabi, just moved a bit far from the city. I haven’t finished unpacking my things and setting my stuff there but hopefully I will by this week.

Got some adjusting to do, like I’m sharing a room with more peepz, they’re not used on locking the doors (I don’t even have the key), and they use tap water in the water dispenser. Right now, I like the room because it’s clean though not totally organized. The A/C is nice also, it’s quite cold inside. I slept well because my roommates weren’t there yet. And off course, there is wired internet and the connection are quite fast, that’s high points. =D

Yappy

I talk too much. I talk too loud. And with anger spoken comes tears from my eyes. It’s actually my body refusing to be angry. But what to do? Right now I’m like this, but I still believe that tomorrow I could be change. Because change is permanent. And I know the Author of me knows best and He knows what His plans for me are. I know I still have an attitude and it’s been really hard to shake off but hope is still there and nothing is impossible to Him.

Thankfully I’ve seen changes in me. Mainly is about caring. Before to run away from being irritated I just don’t care about what’s happening around me. Yup, I know it’s not right not to care, but that seems to me as a form of self defense (so that I won’t be bothered). But now, I do care about many things I didn’t care before. Like how people see me, I care now, not because of me but of Him who’s Name He let me carry with me. =)

I see more than I see before. I see talking too much when angry or bothered is not advisable. And it’s getting boring. I also observed that I’m not used to people caring about me. It’s a foreign feeling and I seem to reject it. I’m not used to people telling me what to do because I’ve done most of the things I need to do, alone. I know it’s not good to be alone, but most of the time in the past years of my life I’m more on the helper than the helped one. So, having people give “care” suggestions or help really does seem foreign to me. Maybe this is why I yap too much. Err.. ;b