Yappy

I talk too much. I talk too loud. And with anger spoken comes tears from my eyes. It’s actually my body refusing to be angry. But what to do? Right now I’m like this, but I still believe that tomorrow I could be change. Because change is permanent. And I know the Author of me knows best and He knows what His plans for me are. I know I still have an attitude and it’s been really hard to shake off but hope is still there and nothing is impossible to Him.

Thankfully I’ve seen changes in me. Mainly is about caring. Before to run away from being irritated I just don’t care about what’s happening around me. Yup, I know it’s not right not to care, but that seems to me as a form of self defense (so that I won’t be bothered). But now, I do care about many things I didn’t care before. Like how people see me, I care now, not because of me but of Him who’s Name He let me carry with me. =)

I see more than I see before. I see talking too much when angry or bothered is not advisable. And it’s getting boring. I also observed that I’m not used to people caring about me. It’s a foreign feeling and I seem to reject it. I’m not used to people telling me what to do because I’ve done most of the things I need to do, alone. I know it’s not good to be alone, but most of the time in the past years of my life I’m more on the helper than the helped one. So, having people give “care” suggestions or help really does seem foreign to me. Maybe this is why I yap too much. Err.. ;b