9th

Today is our 9^th monthsary. We had a great time last night and greeted each other early.

Today, thankfully I got a straight schedule at work so afterwards I went to Marina Mall to meet him there. It was not that long ride but waiting for the bus took time. I arrived after 30 minutes. I just want to see him so when he told be that he’s already there but with his friends, I told him I’ll just wait on a bench in front of the fountain but he didn’t liked the idea so I got up and prepare to go to where he is but thankfully he phoned and I saw him meters away from me.  Unfortunately (since I actually didn’t want to) we went to see his housemates to say he is going with me. I’m not into those situations but I did put on a smile and throw some jokes to lighten up. After that we went to see some gadgets, I looked for a digicam that I would like but didn’t find any. Then we see the cellphone stands and found one I liked and decided to buy it. Getting a digicam is what I planned but having a nice phone is not bad either so I got a Samsung GT-S5233W EDGE Quad Band, it’s not much but I like it, it has wifi and camera so it’s fine with me. Thankfully I got passed the idea of just buying the latest, now, I stick on buying something I like and also would not hurt my pocket. =D We got some free movie tickets so we went to the cinema to see if there is any movie we could watch, as expected we didn’t find any. After that we went to get some food. We had Sbarro pizza, pasta and salad. I enjoyed our time together, especially when he just stared and smiled at me. I love this guy. :)

We went home and during the ride we decided to go somewhere and meet some friends but the planned changed because at the middle of our conversation I pissed him off. I guess there are some nice words that I haven’t said or some nice gestures that I haven’t done. I went home sad, tears did fell, I thought it’s the end of us. He sent me an SMS afterwards and I got to tell him what I felt. We did straighten things out and decided tomorrow would be another day. I just said to my self that night that, if I was still me before I met him, I would probably have just gone my way and ended everything. But I can’t, I don’t know why but I can’t, not with him. Period.

I do got some snob personality but under it is just me trying not to hurt myself by getting close to someone, but to this guy, I can’t help but letting myself all out in front of him (hmm.. maybe not all-all but definitely not holding back anything).

Today, as I said in my SMS, I don’t ask for perfection but I do hope for understanding. Love is far more important than pride. And, I love you.